Audition Tomorrow

My audition for A Midsummer Night's dream is tomorrow, at 11:10 am. And I have to say that I'm just as excited as I am nervous. I've never actually auditioned for anything outside of my school, so it'll be a huge learning experience whether I am casted or not! :) That's what this next year has to be about for me. Experience.
So, by memory, and how I phrase sentences, here is my audition monologue. (Commas represent pauses - I know some are grammatically incorrect)

O, what a deal of scorn looks beautiful in the contempt, and anger of his lip!
A murderous guilt shows not itself more soon than love that would seem... hid: Love's night is noon...
Cesario! By the roses of the spring! By maidhood... honour... truth and every thing --
-- I love thee so! That, maugre all thy pride.
Nor wit, nor reason can my passion hide.
Do not extort they reasons from this clause,
For that, I woo... Thou therefore hast no cause...
But rather reason, thus with reason fetter,
Love sought is good but... Given unsought, better.

With only 12 lines, and about fifty-three seconds, I have to ensure that I show different sides of my acting abilities in this monologue. So, I've chosen 3 emotions/ideas/thoughts to flow into each other.... Here's the monologue again, written in the original 12-line form.

O, what a deal of scorn looks beautiful
In the contempt and anger of his lip!
A murderous guilt shows not itself more soon
Than love that would seem hid: Love's night is noon.
Cesario, by the roses of the spring
By maidhood, honour, truth and every thing
I love thee so, that, maugre all thy pride.
Nor wit, nor reason can my passion hide.
Do not extort thy reasons from this clause
For that I woo, thou therefore hast no cause.
But rather reason, thus with reason fetter
Love sought is good, but given unsought better.

*From lines 1-4 I play with the idea of romance. The way I move and think about Cesario is very romantic in that sense. All my movements are smooth, and close to my body.
*Then, from lines 5-8 I start to sound desperate. I open myself up completely to Cesario, and let go of the thoughts I began in lines 1-4. My arms open wide - my movements are far from my body, and almost separate from it. I'm hectic. Desperate to reach out and touch him, with my words, of course. ;)
*Finally, from lines 9-12 I'm trying to convince Cesario to love me back. This time, my movements are both close, and far from my body, but WITH my body.

:) I am such a drama nerd.

Passion

I honestly don't understand how someone as little as me could have so much passion, ambition.
The nature of my passion contradicts my size, really - I shouldn't be able to have this much in me.

Ever since I was little I've wanted to be famous, for lack of a better word. I want to be remembered and I want the dream. I do. And I feel like I've been holding back. But if I could just get the change to do what some musicians do now - to perform in front of so many, to inspire the sparks behind the eyes of so many. I was to inspire the dream inside that one outspoken, little girl, who sings like she does breathes. Just a minute. That's all I'd need. A minute to show the world all the passion this little seventeen-year-old has to offer.



I'll find a way onto that stage. I will. No matter what.

Human.

I've never felt that I really fit any of the usual stereotypes for people in high school. Geek. Nerd. Prep. Etc.
I kind of find them a tad bit overrated, actually...

"You know how you think I'm a geek? I've figured out what you are."
'Do tell :)"
"A human."
"Very funny."
"No, it sounds stupid, but the way I see it, it's deeper than that."
"Humour me :P"
"Humans have emotions, nobody I know has such emotions more so than you. Humans have fears and problems, and so do you. And humans require love, and you want nothing more than to be loved. That's how I see it."

:)

Audition for A Midsummer Night's Dream

My audition for A Midsummer Night's Dream is on November, 27th, at 11:10am. It's a Sunday. And I'm not nervous yet. I'm really considering doing a short excerpt from Twelfth Night.

Olivia.

O, what a deal of scorn looks beautiful
In the contempt and anger of his lip!
A murderous guilt shows not itself more soon
Than love that would seem hid: love's night is noon.
Cesario, by the roses of the spring,
By maidhood, honour, truth and every thing,
I love thee so, that, maugre all thy pride,
Nor wit nor reason can my passion hide.
Do not extort thy reasons from this clause,
For that I woo, thou therefore hast no cause,
But rather reason thus with reason fetter,
Love sought is good, but given unsought better.

But I'm afraid it might be short-lived. Bland. Lacking of something. I think I only picked this one because I am in love with Olivia's character.
Hm.

Birthday Wishes

Today was my seventeenth birthday. Yep. It came, and it's almost gone. To be honest - I video taped the exact moment when I changed (11:57am ;)).

I feel weird. Different. Not sure if I like it just yet though. Sixteen was a huge milestone for me. I had my first kiss. I went to New York and fell in love with Times Square. I got my first leading role as Anne Frank. I got my first second kiss. And my first third. I spent a day with myself painting my room and belting those few favourite songs that I know off-by heart. I spent the nights crying, and the days smiling. I spent half of my time over thinking things, and the other half taking action. Maybe sometimes the wrong actions. But at least I acted. My year of sixteen began naive. And somewhere along the way I became bitter and broken, and lost that pure part of myself. And it seems that a year from when I began naive, I am naive again. Not sure if I'm ready to let that all go. Not sure if I'm ready for seventeen. But I suppose I have no choice.

But I am starting naive again. That's what's important. My child-like ways will always end up finding their way back to me, that I know. :)

Seventeen. Hm.
It's a new year for me. And as I always do, I'll make a few promises to myself.
I vow to remain humble, genuine and naive. To love. To hate. To laugh. To inspire. To cry. To live.
This past year I spent finding and understanding a few different sides of myself, and I think that I'll spend the next year showing people what parts of Brianna Kane they've been missing.

Seventeen. The word is still so foreign to my tongue.
But like every other year, I'm sure this one will pass all too quickly.
Yeah. I'm ready.

Seventeen.

- Blk.

Dependent

I know I've been focusing more on theatre for a while, but I think it's time for me to get back to my roots. To the music. To song writing. To YouTbe videos. TO SINGING THE FUCK OUT OF MY CLASSMATES IN ART. ;)

I need that dependent back in my life. That one thing that is going to love me no matter what. That's what passion is; I've known music since birth, and since then, our lives have been inexplicably intertwined. That's how it should be in any relationship. You should meet, fall, kiss and lose yourself in each other. Music and I met, fell into the magic and possibility of each other, and have been figuratively making babies ever since! Haha. ;)

Someday (hopefully), I'll lose myself in someone. But today - right now - I'm already lost in music. Could I honestly ask for a better boyfriend?
Hehe. Didn't think so. :)

Love,
Bree

PS. Got a new camera as an early birthday present! So expect a lot more music (:

Maybe Next Year...

If I were to direct my own Broadway Revue for next year, (haven't decided for sure yet if I'll pitch it to Bernard or not), this would be my song choices. (Mind you, it's just a rough!)

1. La Vie Boheme (full cast)
2. Favorite Things (small group)
3. The Wizard and I (solo)
4. All that Jazz OR Diamonds are a Girl's Best Friend (small Group)
5. What is This Feeling? (small group)
6. On My Own (solo)
7. Zero to Hero (small group)
8. Mama Mia (full cast)
- INTERMISSION -
9. Anything Goes (most of cast - split solos)
10. Part of Your World (solo)
11. Hakuna Matata (small group)
12. So Much Better (small group - split solos)
13. Sisters (duet)
14. Cell Block Tango (six girls, one guy)
15. Take Me or Leave Me (duet)
16. Footloose (full cast)

:) If only...

Audrey Hepburn Monologue (Script)

I really wanted to share this will all of you, so here's the final script for my Audrey Hepburn monologue! Video to follow. :)

Audrey Hepburn - Monologue

(Lights up to a dressing room with a rack of costumes, a make-up desk and a divider to change behind. AUDREY is sitting on the one-person couch in a little black dress, cigarette in one hand. Legs crossed or propped up onto the coffee table. She looks up towards the door – up left – because she hears someone enter/knocking.)

(VOICE CUE: We’ll be ready for you in ten, Audrey.)

(AUDREY nods and looks away pensively for another moment before addressing the audience. Cigarette in hand, she waits a moment before speaking.)

AUDREY (leans forward): I probably hold the distinction of being one movie star who, by all laws of logic, should never have made it. At each stage of my career, I lacked the experience. I was asked to act when I couldn’t act. I was asked to sing “Funny Face” when I couldn’t sing, and dance with Fred Astaire when I couldn’t dance- and do all kinds of things I wasn’t prepared for. Then I tried like mad to cope with it. I tried always to do better: saw always a little further. I tried to stretch myself. And over the years my relationship with the performance arts grew and has exceeded all my wildest expectations. It has become a huge part of who I am. I can remember when I began taking ballet classes when I was a little girl… (Stands and uses couch as bar and does some plies and ballet moves).

AUDREY: My mother always loved to watch me dance. But my father…

 (She stops and stands completely still, with her hand still rested on the couch. Staring at the floor.)

AUDREY: He disappeared when I was six. Just up and left us one day. Losing that part of my childhood so suddenly, well… It’s hard to try and forget that you were forgotten. It was probably the most traumatic event in my life.

AUDREY: (She regains her composure) But then again, I suppose it was right around the same time that I realised my affinity for the stage, so I was easily distracted from it all. And I turned out alright, I think.

AUDREY: (She moves to the desk and sits up straight. She begins to primp her face) I never thought I’d land in pictures with a face like mine. (Applying blush and obscene amounts of powder) To be quite frank, I think my look is attainable. Women can look like Audrey Hepburn by flipping out their hair, buying the large sunglasses, and the little sleeveless dresses.

(Applies mascara. Uses hand-held mirror. Very exact.)

AUDREY: Perfect. (Stands and walks to the rack of clothes, picking out another little black dress, with a pearl neckline, and black flats) I suppose I’ve always believed that I have none of the attributes usually required for a movie queen, including the shapeliness. I blame the war. (She winks and walks to behind the changing divider to change into her little black dress). But even so, I’ve always thought that there is more to sex appeal than just measurements. I don’t need a bedroom to prove my womanliness (Throws one shoulder dress over the top of the screen so it hangs. Peak around the corner of the screen to talk directly to the audience). I can convey just as much sex appeal, picking apples or standing in the rain.

AUDREY: (Back to changing. Slight pause to finish changing.)  And if my world were to cave in tomorrow, (exit the screen and move makeup desk. When she gets to the desk she sits and primps her face more.) I would look back on all the pleasures and excitements I have been lucky enough to have had. Not the sadness, not my miscarriages or my father leaving home, but the joy of everything else. My success, Mel – and my darling baby boy, Sean… It will have been enough – all of it. Right down to the very last frame.

AUDREY (To the audience, with tube of lipstick opened in her hands): I just believe in the impossible, even though the way I see it: nothing is impossible. Even the word itself says “I’m possible!”

AUDREY(Applies lipstick): I believe in pink.

AUDREY (Smacks lips together: mwah! She laughs at her silliness and shuts lipstick tube): I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing. Kissing a lot. (Stand) I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls… And I believe that tomorrow is another day full of miracles. And I believe in miracles. I believe that the best thing to hold onto in life is each other. And that the most important thing is to enjoy your life – to be happy – because that’s all that ever matters in the end: happiness. (Picks up glasses off of makeup desk.)

(Pause. She walks UL to exit, and pauses for a short moment. She turns around, looking thoughtful.)

AUDREY: Everything I learned, I learned from the movies. I love movies not just because they are mere entertainment, or because it’s my job to love them. I love movies because they prepare me. They scare me. They move me. They made me. Everything I… (Stops and corrects herself, fidgeting with glasses) Everything we learned, we learned from the movies.

(VOICE CUE (about 3 seconds after AUDREY stops speaking): We’re ready for you on set, Audrey!)

(AUDREY smiles before putting on her glasses and exiting UL)

(BLACKOUT)